I think that when I created this blog I still had my Honda Accord and it ran fine. I still only had two DWIs (one of couse was pending from Sherwood, which I had a failure to appear warrant from since Nov. of 2007 in Sherwood since I didn't go to court on Oct. 30 like a real genius!!) And I was still in decent standing with my p.o. from another county, although things were certainly up in the air so to speak and I was already in constant fear that things were about to totally fall fuckin apart any day because I got behind on my monthly probation fee and had possibly failed my U.A. in december.
But then, wouldn't you know I went and fucked it all the way up!! And damnit: I could kick myself in the damn head for doin it the way I did. Sometimes I look at my actions in hindsight and think: "My God! WTF is wrong we me? Why did I do that??!!" Yah know, and like have absolutely no f**kin clue why I had, and what made me do things the way I had.....Like the mourning I woke up in jail a little over two weeks ago today and found myself hung-over, with a wrecked Honda (GD!) which Sam had tried time and time again to treat that car with the tender love and concern (as well as RESPECT-I should mention) and what do I do....I go out and buy another pint of whiskey while he's napping on Friday afternoon/evening after his mother had asked me to go to the store for her to get some Coke. I mean, for the past 2, 3, months I haven't been driving my car at all-Anywhere! If someone drove it it was Sam (or Brad once or twice) and I hardly even went with him, even if he was driving I didn't like to be out and about in public after my warrent was issued b/c I knew I would go to jail for a period even if they did OR me eventually, I knew I wouldn't be able to just bond right out again since I had a FAT!! Even if the county jail was overcrowded.
And Yep! I sure did have to spend some time in jail--although it could have been worse, for sure!! I had a $20,000 bond!! Before I went to court on a Tues. (since Monday had been MLKing Day) I had a $6,000 bond. Damn, I only thought that that was high. I thought "Sam won't be able to nor would he be willing to come up with $600 to bond me out. WRONG! Suprisingly enough to me then he was in fact willing however, not exactly able to do it. But he told me "Don't worry baby I'll get you out by tommorw afternoon, which came and went without a word from him. So....I called him again, that next nite. This time he said he was working on it, Don't Worry!, and that he really thought that they would OR me that next mourning when I was finally able to go before a judge. I cried, he reassured me it would be okay, and ultimately I b.elieved. He was wrong........and the rest of the story will be told in my second post. For now, I am signing out as I have got to get up and work with Callie tommorw. That too will be explained later.
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